GRANDMA

GRANDMA

Grandma when I think of you

A smile comes to my face

I have known you all my life

And hold you in a state of grace

I love you more than words can say

My feelings for you grow more with each passing day

You have done so much for me in my life

It seems like you have that magic touch and can always relieve my strife

When my mother died I thought my world was shattered

But you were there to pick me up even though my heart was splattered

You made my childhood better than “Leave it to Beaver”

It was all because of your help, I turned into an achiever

Grandma you have one of the most gentle and kind soul’s I have ever known

I pray I can have a shred of your kindness when I’m fully grown

Nothing you did ever went unnoticed even though it may have seemed that way

I wish I could rewind and continually hit replay

I’m so happy you got to meet and know my boy, J.R.

I will do my best to pay forward the kind of person you are

We will make a treasure chest full of your memoires

This way J.R. won’t forget and have you there for centuries

I will treasure the gifts that you will leave with me

I will love them forever, this I can guarantee

I want you to know when you leave this earth my heart will be broken into pieces

This is going to be a life lesson I guess that is what god teaches

People say time heals all wounds that someday the pain will subside

But grandma I can tell you I think they must have lied

I can’t imagine not being able to call you on the telephone

I guess I have to put on my big girl pants because you have raised me and now I should be grown

Grandma I love you so much more than words can say

I will miss everything about you but will miss you most on your birthday

You will always have a place in my heart that no one will ever fill

I love you so much, my heart it over spills

I will always be looking for signs you are looking down on us from above

I know you will never leave us, you’ll always be there with your love

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Oh, what a difference a child makes!

I started writing the posting below after we got back from our trip to AZ thinking my grandma had a few more weeks but that was not to be. I got a call at 6am Tuesday, February 1st from my Uncle saying my grandma, J.R.'s great grandma had passed away. I flew down to AZ to be with my grandpa for a week and tried to help as much as I could. I'm now back home and it's slowly becoming a reality that my sweet sweet grandma is gone. Our family will never be the same. I love you grandma. Below is the post I started a few weeks ago:

This past weekend was one of the hardest times of my life. My grandma, J.R.'s great grandma has terminal cancer. She's been fighting it for 5 years and now it's come to the end of the road. My grandma raised me from age 11, when my mother passed away. My grandmother took the place of my mother without a misstep and I was so lucky to have such a wonderful woman and hero in  my life. Here are some family pictures we took back in November of 2007, before J.R.

Tony had a wonderful idea that the entire family (including Toots) hop in the car and head down to spend some time with my grandma. J.R. added so much happiness to the time spent with my grandma. She's too weak to communicate but would smile when she would hear or see J.R. She had what was probably her last lunch at the table with J.R. and boy did he put on a show. He counted to ten and said the alphabet (with my help of course) for my grandma. He continually told my grandma that, "big goggle was sleeping" aka the goalie went off the ice between periods. We also had conversations about his friends at daycare while my grandma watched and smiled. He made everyone laugh without knowing it he lifted the spirits of all of us whenever he was around. I don't see my grandpa smile anymore except when J.R. is around or when he talks about how smart and lucky we are to have such a wonderful little boy. Friends of my grandparents are stopping by saying how happy my grandma was to spend this last Christmas with us, especially J.R., she loves him so!  I brought J.R. to "nana's room" so he could say "goodbye" before we left to come home, I can still hear him now, "bye bye Nana" while he waved and had a big smile on his face. My grandma smiled!

I plan to go back to Arizona next week by myself. I am going to miss my little boy, who's so joyful and full of innocence. J.R. you will never know how you brightened one the of saddest weekends of our lives. Thank you!

Here are a few pictures of J.R. I took this weekend. What a hoot!

J.R. wearing daddy's shoes.



J.R. wearing mommy's shoes.



J.R. in the kitchen picking up crumbs!

Sleeping in!



Looking Cute!



Taking a nap!